Wednesday, November 25, 2015

i call her mother

My mother hates me. 

She is certain I deserve every horrible thing that has ever happened to me, and quite a few things I was blessed to be spared. 

I often wonder which she hates more, the part like him or the part like her. 

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

who knows why?

Sometimes "I don't know, I just got really scared" is the only real answer. 

Monday, November 23, 2015

this is new

I don't know how to be a girlfriend. 

I've always only been a wife and a mother. 

Friday, November 13, 2015

home for the holidays? ha!

How is it that you get to shirk all responsibility for your mother, very much as you did for me, your daughter?

How is it that you can be such a heartless bitch in your interactions with me? 

And then try to make me feel as though I don't deserve any better. 

How is it that I love you anyway?