Friday, August 30, 2013

what women want

I wish I were married to man who, when watching me walk away thought, "damn I am so lucky to have her, she is beautiful." 

Maybe I am and he just doesn't know those words, though I doubt it. 

Or maybe it's just me and I'm a horrible wife. 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013


The authenticity is what has been missing. 

For so long, everything has been heavily filtered through fear - fear of loss, of tragedy; fear of heartbreak, of abandonment; and, fear of judgment, of failure. 

I've held my breath and hoped no one recognized me. It's lonely when no one knows you. It's maddening when you no longer know yourself. 

Saturday, August 24, 2013

six word Saturday

Finally finding myself among the rubble.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

question #1

I'm definitely getting a late start but here we go...question # 1 of the 30 Questions You Should Ask Yourself

1. How much have you loved? 

I had initially begun to describe each of the people (and dogs and cats) I have loved but quickly realized how overwhelming that would be as I believe I have, on some level, loved every one I've ever met.

I have loved with every ounce of my being. I have fallen heart first into another's soul and lost sight of my self I was so enamored and filled with wonder. My very being has exploded, leaving behind a thousand stabbing shards. 

I have loved those incapable of loving and loved them all the more for it. I have loved those who haven't loved me and who couldn't even manage to be kind. I have loved the weak and the lonely and the sick.  

I have loved completely and I love forever.

Friday, August 2, 2013

narrow your focus

I have a difficult time writing these days - both because of current time constraints and the fact that I'm forced to multi-task so much I've nearly forgotten how to really focus, really ponder a given subject. 

A past colleague of mine  shared a great post that may help me focus on 30 key questions.  Check it  out here

I'm going to give them a try, but  I'm not promising I'll go in order.  

empty bucket

I'm so incredibly lonely. 

I keep telling myself that I'm just bored. 

I'm weary. So much time wasted not living. Too busy being tired, or broke - spending our lives wishing we could...

I'm tired of wishing. I'm ready to do. 

I just don't want to do alone.