Wednesday, April 3, 2013

unworthiness

I still feel as though I failed him. I failed them all.

I am keenly aware of my unworthiness and struggle to understand why He would place such value upon me.

Who am I to be of that Kingdom?

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  1. Ahh, but you Are one of the chosen, one of the children of the Kingdom! Who, of any of us are worthy to belong to Him? The first step to inner peace is to understand and accept your own value, to love yourself! While there are many things I would choose to change about myself, and some changes that need undertaking, deep down I have come to believe in me, that my inner core is who and what I want to be. I would like to see you work on a short list of things you are successful at. Try it! At first our mind rejects that possibility because we've heard for so long what miserable failures we are as human beings, partners, friends, parents, etc. But everyone has some things they are good at, that they can use as a starting point and build on. What is it that you most enjoy? What makes you happy? What do you like to do?

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    1. I have been mulling this over in my mind and may spit something our soon.

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  2. I'm agnostic, but I think everyone should be free to have their own beliefs. However, I was reading an interesting article in a psych journal the other day about how "the body remembers." Sounds odd, I know, but it is how we still feel pain in limbs that have been removed, etc. The body/brain/mind/soul/whatever "remembers" what is told to it daily. That is why affirmations tend to work. My password at work used to be IAAPOGV. Meaning: I am a person of great value. I found myself saying it to myself daily as I logged in. I really don't believe in that kingdom that you refer to, but I allow myself to also believe that it is possible that I could be wrong. And I agree with Josie on this one.

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    1. I don't think that sounds odd at all Maria. I think we are often somehow rewired by things and must retrain ourselves.

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