Don't get me wrong.
It would be nice to live without so much of this heartache for all those I've loved, and all they have loved in turn, here and not.
It terrifies me to let go of that pain. It's grounded me for so long. I'm so firmly rooted in it. I sometimes feel as though any minute this whole world will tilt too sharp and sling me off. So I hang on.
I had to remember who I was.
And I know I must let go.
But I don't know how to separate it. How to keep from losing everything.