Monday, December 31, 2007


I'm sitting in my new sitting room/office, admiring the results of a hard day's work. I think I have a comfy, damn near elegant retreat now.

I've actually been working all weekend. Yesterday and Friday I performed a major organizing miracle in my master bathroom and closet.

Today I swapped the master bedroom and sitting room. There is still one wall of my bedroom lined with books, notebooks and various miscellaneous piles. There is also one corner still cluttered with two small file cabinets and a few more piles.

The bulk of the heavy duty work is done, now I have only to sort through the piles and find a place for everything I don't simply trash.

It feels good, almost like I've finally come home. Now maybe I'll crawl out of my hole a bit.

Monday, December 17, 2007

at the end of the day

The day to day bus-i-ness of life has really left me feeling rather felt behind.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

a question

How is it that time flies and comes to a complete standstill all at the same time?

I can't help but wonder if it really is all just an illusion.


I'm not sure which is worse, not believing contentment to be an attainable state, or wondering if it's simply slipped through your fingers.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

try a glass of wine

Note to self: Sleeplessness will occur even if cream is applied during normal waking hours.

Well shit. So much for that idea. I can never sleep well after applying the topical treatment, so tonight I figured I'd try something different and instead of applying it at bedtime, I applied it at around 7 p.m., hoping that I could have it washed off and snoozing happily by 1 or 2 a.m. Yet here it is, damn near 3 a.m. and I'm awake, my skin crawling, my stomach clinched.

So I've grabbed a glass of wine (new taste I've acquired) and a cookie and am hoping one of the two will make the uncomfortable sensations in my crotch ease off enough to get some sleep.

Monday, December 10, 2007

it's hot in here

This is just crazy! I've made cookies and sausage balls, but it's 80 friggin' degrees outside and my windows are open, so I haven't talked myself into putting lights on the tree yet.

It's like the endless summer from hell.

playing games

I've discovered a game on Pogo called Stack 'Em. It's a great source of mind-numbing distraction.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

It's very interesting to me...

...that we can have so many awakenings over the course of our lives.

And that each one only serves to expound on the last.

It's the circle of life Simba.

The other night I found myself floundering in my search for words to comfort my mom. She's stressed and depressed (but I digress.)

The best I could come up was "well damn, but look at it this way, it ALWAYS gets better."

It's the circle of life Simba; the ying and the yang; the wax and the wane; for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.

"You know this. Life is going to get shitty sometimes. It's unavoidable. Shit happens, we know this. But it always gets better doesn't it? Granted, it will probably get shitty again later, but that's the one good thing about shitty, shitty ALWAYS gets better sooner or later."

Monday, December 3, 2007


That's probably the best way to describe how I feel. Just, "ugh!"

I've been trying to get myself on a better schedule, one that includes getting up in the morning and going to bed before midnight and have been doing much better. I was up just before 7 this morning and was plowing through the work on my desk by nine.

By 11:30, I'd had enough so I loaded up my zip drive and came home. I've got a few phone calls to make this afternoon and a board meeting to cover this evening, but I'm free and clear until about 2 and yes, I believe I am going to spend the time snoozing!