I have often wondered if this endless longing isn't simply a driving need to be closer to God.
And I have pleaded for Him to drive the aching loneliness from my soul.
I'm left with only theories...and all the questions that go with them...
Perhaps I have simply not given enough of myself to Him. If so, how do I give more?
Surely He is not just a comforting thought. If I were to no longer doubt His love for me, would this incessant throbbing cease?
Perhaps I do not pray hard enough or often enough. Maybe I'm doing it all wrong, maybe I'm praying for all the wrong things. Is there a "right" way to pray?
Perhaps I am simply too sinful and have been deemed unworthy. Are any of us truly unworthy of His love? Am I simply being punished in this life so I am not in the next? Am I just a spoiled and selfish child?