Saturday, July 7, 2007

hope rises

There's definitely something to be said for knowing for certain!

Thursday's CT scan was a piece of cake, the berry smoothie concoction I had to gulp down wasn't nearly as chalky as I expected, although it did weigh heavily on my tummy for most of the day.

After a restless night, I went to the doctor Friday who seemed as surprised as I that the CT scan revealed nothing out of the ordinary — no strange masses, clean lymph nodes — all is well. The test confirmed what I've been saying for years, the pain is mostly in my head, brought on by stress, or fleeting "ghost pains" from those years before the hysterectomy.

Definitely good to know for sure though.

And I'm very relieved to know that this cancer is really working from the outside in and that it's not lurking around anywhere else. It's much easier to accept the next few months of treatment and surgery knowing that it is not entirely futile.

*deep breath*

So, set a new quit date for the smokes (Friday will be my last day), find some black raspberries and work up the nerve to face the next few months without being too whiny!

1 comment:

  1. OMG! Congratulations on your clean scan! That's terrific news. I'm so happy for you.

    I won't give you shit for being worried or anything like that. I know it's hard to stay of the worry treadmill. Instead I'll just say yeah, knowing for sure is better, especially when the news is so GOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)