Wednesday, June 20, 2007

what am I so afraid of?

I suppose the better question would be what am I not afraid of?

Am I afraid of this all encompassing, "follow you off the edge of the world" feeling? Of course. I've had it and lost it before. I am terrified of risking that again.

Am I afraid of making the wrong decision? Certainly. A lot hinges on my ability to do the right thing and I'm no longer even certain what that is.

Am I afraid of losing my sense of security? Yes. I've come to value security a great deal and no longer find myself in a position to throw caution to the winds.

I am afraid to breathe, to move a muscle. So instead I hide until some of that fear subsides.

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